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The Ultimate Frustration

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just joined [10 Nov 2005|10:21pm]

[ mood | excited ]

joined the community today cant wait to get involved

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[01 Mar 2005|01:15pm]

I have just joined, and I am here because I am in love with the best friend of my fiance'. We'll call him "James".

James and I met in early 2004, at a party my fiance' was hosting. This is going to sound totally cliche', but I knew the minute I looked into his eyes that I would fall for him, before I even knew his name. Since then, I have seen him only a handful of times, (he lives out of state,) and each time I have fallen harder and harder for him.

He is a very affectionate man, and he has shown me affection that borders on blurring lines, but nothing more than a sweet kiss on the forehead or touch of the cheek. I fall harder everytime I see this man, but I know that he is loyal to a fault to his friends, and that, even if his feelings for me are strong, that loyalty may be stronger. I am finding myself in a place alternating between being in love and heartbroken.

He is a lovely man, intelligent, charming, full of life, but there is the physical distance, as well as the complication of my relationship and his friendship with my finace' that stands in the way.

I am at a crossroads, and I want to know that if I choose this path, he will be there with open arms. Not very courageous, I know, but it's how I feel, and I cannot get that guarantee while I am still with someone. I wonder, also, will I just be looking for someone new in another year, or is this something that could really last?

Where is that fairy godmother when you need her?
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[15 Mar 2004|01:57pm]
There is a new Live Journal dating community, you should check it out.
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[29 Sep 2003|09:52am]
I'm new to LJ and I'm really having a hard time sorting out a 4 year relationship. If anybody has time to read what I've written about it, it's the only entry in my journal. Thanks so much... I'm just really confused.
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[12 Jun 2003|12:26pm]

[ mood | hopeful ]

Just wanted to share my good news. My love triangle ended with the man getting his long distance girlfriend to move here. It's taken me a while to get over being displaced/replaced, but time does really heal.

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New model [02 Jun 2003|02:06pm]

[ mood | scared ]

hey i have a big bloody mess going on in my life right now and wondering if someone can give me advice or some comfort in all this
i'm currently "Jamals girlfriend" i was in love with for like almost 2 years now
and he never showed any sign of wanting anything more then just being lovers and saw other people and god i was so fucking in love and still sorta am but anyways heres the big problem for 10months b4 all this i was going out with this other guy(james) and he fell in love with me :sigh: and i cheated on him with my current "boyfriend" and he still loved me and he even saved me from killing myself now i don't kno what to do i just broke up with James and started going out with jamal but a few days ago on the 21st but james still wants to be with me and i don't want to hurt him but anyways the thing is me and jamal hardly talk and he just got unengaged with his ex gf and i don't kno if i should even be with him i love him more then anything but we hardly talk or see eachother b/c hes always busy.blah i'm just so confused with who i should be with the guy i've always been in love with who was hardly there, or the guy in love with me who cares so damn much i love them both and wish i could just mix them into one guy
please help...if u read my journal u can see some of this damn confusion i just dont kno whos the right one for me i love jamal but hes so distant and i don't wanna end up getting dumped b/c he changed his mind :walks into the woods to cry:

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:/ [17 Jan 2003|10:13am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I'm falling out of love with my current boi and falling for another... it really sucks cause I'm living with the current one. -sigh-

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[21 Dec 2002|01:32am]
I guess im in sort of a love triangle, though I think its ended (then again I thought it ended quite awhile ago), im going through the "healing" process. If anyone is interested go check out my few recent entries and skim through. I would type it out, but its just too long of a story, eck.
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[18 Dec 2002|03:41am]

[ mood | frustrated ]

love triangles suck like a mofoCollapse )

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so i'll start us off with something love-triangle-related... :) [18 Dec 2002|01:19am]

[ mood | *sigh* ]

Sometimes I really wish I could tell him everything.

He is truly one of the best friends I have ever had, and I know that he tells me everything about his life and his feelings. I, too, have told him everything...almost everything. The only thing that I can't talk to him about is how I truly feel about him...

Because he's taken...he's going out with a girl who also is a friend of mine...

So I sit around, talking to him about anything and everything, but the one thing we have never talked about is who I have a crush on. He hasn't ever asked me and I'm thankful for that.

And yet, at the same time, I kind of wish he knew. Ehhh...I guess I really just don't know what I want. :-/

I would go into more detail but I'm paranoid that someone involved in the situation will find this. (Although, heck, if they do, I'm screwed anyway, even just having written this much...)

Anyone else been in a situation like this, involving a adored-but-taken best friend?

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[10 Dec 2002|05:47pm]

[ mood | calm ]

Hi everyone! Just thought I'd drop in and say hello... I really don't feel like posting my current love triangle, but I will soon. :)


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[10 Dec 2002|12:30pm]

Hey there...welcome to the community... pretty simple premise, here... try to stay on topic, but "on topic" can include a lot of things... I'm the maintaner here, and I'd give a nicer opening speech except that I have class in 10 minutes so I guess we'll have to skip that this time. :) Have fun!
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